Thanks!

Hi!

This is just me saying thank you.

I never had it easy. But most of the time, I feel that I had more than what I should. I am thankful for all the oppurtunity granted to me by all of the wonderful people I've met. Shame, I only turned out to be a disappointment, but that is a talk for another time.

When you are okay, it easy to miss the little things thay happens to you. And when you are in pain, you notice every little thing. And it is not just "notice", but a full awareness of everything happening. It is you deciding whether to take what's offered or not because you feel you don't deserve anything anymore.

I'd like to thank the people who stopped and asked if I were okay. I know, I lied. But I lied because it is hard to admit to someone that all I think all day is how to fucking end myself without hurting everyone around me. I lied because other I know that people have enough problems of their own to deal with. I lied because I thought I don't need help. For I always did things on my own. It is either I do stuff myself or I help other people. It never occured to me that I am allowed to ask for help. Still, to these people, thank you for noticing.

I'd also like to thank you. I promised not to name anyone but I know you know who you are. You've been there even though it wasn't your responsibility to be. You stayed even after I pushed everyone away. Maybe it is a little bit overreacting but you are the greatest thing that happened in my life. I apologize for not being able to return the favor.

We all wanted purpose. It's just that some of us lose it and never finds it again. Or maybe some of us don't really have any. Or maybe some of us don't notice how much they can still do because nobody appreciates them.

Thank someone today. I don't know much about being a good person but I know that people with purpose don't think of the same thoughts I have.

Thank you for reading.

Sincerely,
ghostvines15