Life

Hi!


Do you know what is most tiring in the world? The thought of waking up each morning not knowing if you should go on or just wait for your demise. It is you, at 3 in the morning trying to convince yourself that there is still life out there. It is you, with your mind actively thinking every chance you've missed while your body demands rest.

What they don't tell you about life is that you have to live it. Every single day.

What they don't tell you is that there are no upsides in growing up. Better to die early than to live with all the pain you'll endure and will carry for years.

And for people with nothing to live for, every single day is a burden. This is why sleep is one of the few luxuries people like me have. Being awake is task enough. Being "present" is a lot of hard work.

That is why I choose to isolate. I don't have the strength to socialize. To make authentic conversations. It's either I want to sleep or to not wake up.

Because reality after all, is a nightmare pretending to be a dream.

Sincerely,
ghostvines15